By Patricia Lefave, Labelled, D.D.(P)
This is dedicated to "Maya" and David, both of whom are currently fighting to regain their genuine Selves and to escape the invalidation and denial of the labelling system.
December, 2005: I have just come out of a Mall where a man and his girlfriend (?) whom I do not know, and who do not know me, put on a little performance for me. He let me know, using his gal pal as a prop in his little play, that in the opinion of total strangers such as himself, who have heard rumours, and many convoluted stories about me here, that I am guilty of blaming those blameless ''others'' who can never be blamed. He knows this because I am one person and they are many who have reached this conclusion, by group consensus.
This following message right out of MY madness is for all my labelled friends, wherever they are, all over the planet. But it is ALSO for strangers such as these.
All of you who are with me in the collective consciousness.
Let's pray together, as One voice, for our Mutual benefit:
Holy "One",
We pray for the conversion of satan (which means the Adversarial Spirit) all of It's angels, all those who are following the path of Spiritual evil , TO correct thinking, love, peace and mutual respect for boundaries.
Please God awaken all of the people of your universe to the truth about BOTH ourselves and others .
Amen.
This is a prayer I constructed and spoke while I was in psychosis in 95 and which I have repeated many times since. I saw myself then as being conscious, inside the collective unconscious.
As I said to The Voices then, I am saying now also: Don't be afraid. The Voices you hear are only our own. It is just "Us." We ARE the ''Holy One'' or the ''Wholly One'' and together we have a strength that it is not possible to have alone.
Whether that is literally true or symbolically true, it worked for me and allowed me to get my own boundaries back.
The Balancing Act
Many people who are metaphysically ill are trying to balance on a centre line which is a choice between controlling others or being controlled by others.
Most don't see at first that the change they must make is a third choice to be neither controlled by others nor to control others. of course, when labelled NOT being controlled BY others is the big problem.The answer though is to focus on controlling one's Self. That means much more than self restraint. it also requires balance, but between self restraint AND Self protection. It is the choice for Self definition.
Rather than controlling the world or carrying the weight of a world that controls us, we focus on both sides of the metaphysics of Self control as the end goal we all want so much.
In the smaller but much more comfortable space of our own personal boundaries--giving up on controlling others AND blocking the attempts of others to control us--peace grows. Bit by bit, our sense of the return of our genuine Self comes with it. When we give ourselves the right to be, to think, to speak, to write our own thoughts, to feel our own feelings and acknowledge that all others have the same right to Be, everybody wins. Then no one is either an ''outsider'' nor an ''insider'' because that illusion is gone and with It's disappearance , the war against an ''enemy'' imagined or made real, is over. All that is left after that is for those "others" to see It.
Don't lose hope. We are not defeated yet. While any of us still live and still breathe, there is hope of resolution for All. May you all feel the Spiritual Peace we all need this year, and every year, while we keep up our struggle for personal freedom, individual recognition of out personal truths, Self definiton and real well being. And may your boundaries all return, intact, for all of you as well.
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